Wednesday, June 24, 2009
and i feel that 24hours is never enough.
and sleeping is a waste of time.
and dreams are so scary they consume my mind.
i'm tired but i don't wanna sleep.
because every day is just another cycle.
and i'm running away from what i should face.
make it or break it, because it's killing me slowly.
and there's an evil in my mind.
that reflects the bad side of me.
and i'm sick that life isn't a turn-back clock,
and i hate that i might regret things that i have never done.
not all things are worth it.
the brush that made me jump.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
no i can't sleep even after having my medicine.
and my nose is always 1/2 blocked, so i can't really breathe properly or taste food properly. my throat is still inflamed. on a happier note, being sick made me slim down, a little.
and so i'll probably take another dosage of the cough syrup after this so i can retreat to bed for the night/morning.
its hard when i don't even understand myself;
and its just another vulnerable night;
where songs alone, made me teared.
great. i left home this afternoon at 3pm and missed the shut down button on the laptop; so it has been running for over 12hours.
had a haircut today.
then went to buy fathers' day present.
went to play L4D.
went to watch 2 movies; i love you man and blood vampire.
went for supper.
came home, like finally.
i hate unfinished work.
and a lot of other stuff.
internal conflict, is. detrimental.
period.
