Wednesday, December 31, 2008
last year's christmas and new year's in China.
now it feels weird, like something's missing.
or i don't know how to go about doing it.
oh well.
tmr's last day of 2008.
damn damn damn.
so much of procrastinating.
okay. and that's the thing.
alot of stuff for me to clear up/do.
exchange stuff.
find a job or study.and etc etc. zzz.
i hate myself from running away.
say YES!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
bedtime stories.
transporter 3.
steamboat was fattening.
life's depressing as year's coming to an end.
HAHAHA. i don't know what to study.
too tired.
and a lil hungry...
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
its almost 3 but it feels like 5.
tiring.
been out for 15hours ZZ. and it has been a very loooooooooong time since i took mrt all the way to eunos.
phew.
was dying of starvation before the buffet at sakae sushi; which, after that i could feel my stomach bursting. hahahahah.
i need my noodle and bed now.
Monday, December 22, 2008
my calves hurt.
zzz.
too much walking, literally.
and i was having motion sickness on the damn bus home from town.
27kilometres.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
booooo.
its coming to an end.
stupid '08.
too complicated.
TSK.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
hmm.
christmas is coming.
and no, not looking forward to.
i've been a good girl for the past year(IMO),
i gave; i took; been nice; been kind; and the list goes on... ... ... ...
i would want lots of moneyyyyyyyyyyy so i won't have to work. w-o-r-k freaks me out.
so i can buy lots of stuff that i want and go around the world splurging.
and i hope santa would be kind to me in this coming year.
too much thoughts as it clears.
too much (ok i can't think of THAT word now, damn.)
as i
try stand up again.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
i skipped my medication for 3days.
was supposed to complete course.
i need to stop.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
not when I'm tired and sick;
my patience runs even shorter.
i drank 15ml of cough syrup; 3times the amount I'm supposed to take.
and all i wanna do now is sleep.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
there's a throbbing pain in my head.
and my freaking limbs are cold.
oh, and an everlasting sore throat.
now i don't feel like going out.
fuck it.
things are not going right.
lost my badges.
can't find the book.
cc statement has discrepancy.
won't be having the car to drive tomorrow.
my throat hurts and I'm coughing my lungs out.
anymore?
and a stupid baby cockroach crawled up my calf just now -.-
counting down.
Monday, December 8, 2008
2plus hours of sleeping.
includes all
the things that I've dreamed of.
and i woke up; lost and teared. -.-
wtf. stupid weather.
As with most common dream themes,
falling is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties.Falling dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. You feel shameful and lack a sense of pride.
To dream that you are
lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life.
To dream that people or objects are
disappearing right before your eyes, signifies your anxiety and insecurities over the notion that loved ones might disappear out of your life. You may feel that you cannot depend on someone and feel that you are alone and inadequate. You need to work on your self-image and self-esteem.
To see an
escalator in your dream, indicates movement between various levels of consciousness. If you are moving up in the escalator, then it suggests that you are addressing and confronting emotional issues. You are moving through your spiritual journey with great progress and ease.
To dream that you are
scared, indicates that you are experiencing self-doubt and feelings of incompetence in your waking life. You may be feeling a lack of control.
To dream of the
internet, signifies your need to communicate with a larger network of people.
To see a
toilet in your dream, symbolizes a release of emotions or getting rid of something in your life that is useless.
To see a
dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success.
hmmm.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
sleep sleep sleep.
and the day passes damn fast.
ZZZ.
i don't even feel like eating..
trying too hard.
Friday, December 5, 2008
i had likee 5 dreams yday.
and i kept waking up; in an hour's interval.
so surreal. zzz.
was dreading for class and yeah. test.
hmm.
i feel like i've alot of phlegm stuck in my chest.
and i'm home alone.
blah.
and i've got diarrhea. -.- must be the bbq food yday.
and the maggi mee i cooked sucks.
at peace today.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
today's been a long long day.
brought hazel to the vet at 9+ this morning.
waited till 10+ for my turn.
hmm got in. took blood for test.
waited.
consultation with doctor.
everything ended at 12plus.
hmm.
now she's taking antibiotics. and i have to report to the vet every week about her -.-
got home. rushed. brought hazel and mocha down to class.
they were in the cage watching me scissoring.
haha.
that felt weird. and i wasn't focused at all.
and it didn't help that that coffee was fidgety and, best. it bit me. zzz.
gave mocha a bath.
bandannas. got down to changi sailing club.
uh i lost my way. hahah. was signaling for another classmate to take over me
but she didnt -.-
so we ended up at changi airport.
hmm.
but we got there at 630.
good.
then it was cam whoring session -.-
1st bbq that i didn't had to do the bbq-ing.
uh but mocha's damn unfriendly. growls at all the other dogs. zzz.
i had a beer.sprite. satay. a piece of chicken. and then i was feeding my dogs to eat.
hmm.
i left at 10 after they took a group pic.
and my dogs are tired out. hahahahah.
i just took my drowsy med! and i think i'll be sleeping soon.
totally knock me out i guess; with 3hrs of sleep and 18hours of running about.
gee.
now i've to upload photos and send to people!
sleep early.
thats her at the vet's.
us at bbq(:
twists and turns.
now i pray for hazel to be fine.
and er, mount pleasant's night emergency's frigging expensive.
i didn't realized i was drowsy when i droved to the hospital.
until i was sitting down inside. and i felt light-headed. giddy.
zzz.
tmr's gonna be a busy day.
vet. class. gathering. and I'd really wanna bring hazel there, to have fun.
and my med is not helping at all.
uhyer. let everything be fine please.
i can't think now.
i guess it just boils down to myself, alone.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
and now my throat hurts.
throbbing pain.
good game.
cooool.i was standing at my balcony.
gee and the wind smelled familiar;
when i was young,
and carefree.
and when everything was simple.
p/s thats for staying home like, forever. zzz.
because i could never cope with; another runaway.
but i drive myself crazy; thinking of you.
and i know i will; from this moment.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
i can't believe i slept from 11 to 5.
the med rocks.
and i'm going back to bed because its raining.
and my tongue taste bitter.
hmmmm.
you would place me below.
i would place you above.
a proper post after so long.
went to the doc's today.
gee.
selected words. triggered. asthma background. smoker cough. spasm. phlegm. blocked nose. zzz.
now i've 4 medications to take and one's keeping me real drowsy.
not a bad thing though.
and hmm. im dreading tml to come...
Monday, December 1, 2008
if only
i could express.
if only
i could hold a candle to you.
my insecurities.
